[ That makes Boa's protest die in his mouth and he goes silent for a bit. Lance has hit a nail right on the head that Boa didn't even want to admit existed in the first place. But after that trial... how could he not think about it? In the end, it's why he died. Because he couldn't stand the thought of two people hating him any more than they were already bound to hate him. ]

... it was nice. Being friends with them. I was always told that friends make you weak and I guess I'm dead to prove that point. But it was nice.

I just don't want to wish for anything unrealistic.