He takes a long breath, holding it in for a moment.
Both of them gone. He knows what Mitsuru is asking - what he wants to be done - and god help him, some part of him is saying -
'Why not? You're not of any use here, you know. Everyone has suffered all week and figured out things without you. You can't save anyone, and trying to be brave and be strong for them all isn't working, is it?'
...And it's not working. He's just barely holding himself together, especially after Shirou died, keeping a brave face. It was why he let it be known at the meeting that he'd be fine with dying, if it made them feel safer.
He has no fear of death, especially now that he knows what will happen when he does. But Mitsuru...]
I thought - you wanted to live.
Or...it's not just about the Final Protocol, is it? Or the hunger.
just the rest of this thread may be triggery so, uh. Be warned?
He takes a long breath, holding it in for a moment.
Both of them gone. He knows what Mitsuru is asking - what he wants to be done - and god help him, some part of him is saying -
'Why not? You're not of any use here, you know. Everyone has suffered all week and figured out things without you. You can't save anyone, and trying to be brave and be strong for them all isn't working, is it?'
...And it's not working. He's just barely holding himself together, especially after Shirou died, keeping a brave face. It was why he let it be known at the meeting that he'd be fine with dying, if it made them feel safer.
He has no fear of death, especially now that he knows what will happen when he does. But Mitsuru...]
I thought - you wanted to live.
Or...it's not just about the Final Protocol, is it? Or the hunger.
[Because, in the end?
He wants to know the truth of the matter.]